was so miserable i could cry

and i did shed a few tears out of sheer frustration. its almost like permanent car-sickness. and there's nothing u could do to feel better. when vicks, axe oil, sour plums fail, it really really sucks.

now its not as bad as some people i know - who literally spend their days hugging the toilet bowl. i just gag. and gag. and nothing comes out. sometimes, brown yucky liquid does. its foul-smelling, turns me off so much that i gag more, wretching my guts out. the bloatedness is just so unbearable. i literally punch my chest to try to feel better. i wish i could stick a pin somewhere to let the gas out. it builds up slowly by the day.. and by night time.. i'm ready to float up into the air like a bubble..

and when medicine time comes... lets not even go there...

i feel like this right now