Sunday, July 8 2007 - Healing

sometimes, when everything around u crashes, u are sucked into the deepest end of the black hole. u dont see any light and u doubt u ever will.

but the truth is, u do heal.

of course, the rate at which u do, varies with individual.

a positive mindset and outlook, a loving and supportive spouse, an understanding family, ur personal willpower all come into play.

the pain lessens, with each day.

the first few days were the hardest. u wake up, open ur eyes and wish it was all a dream. i would stone in bed for as long as i needed. it didnt take too long for the crammy feeling in the lower abdomen to remind and pull me back into reality. that it did happen.

instead of avoiding seeing bulging tummies everywhere i go, i embrace the lovely sight and wish them both well silently. instead of flicking to the next channel when "Runway Moms" or "In the womb" are screened, i watched with open-eye curiosity and awe, eyes fixated.

after experiencing this, it made me realise even more how precious life is. that it is extraordinary that we are given the power to create life. that it should never ever be destroyed out of 'convenience'.

i told bee that we should have 3.

3 cats, 3 kids. :)
one big happy family

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been watching korean dvds almost nonstop for the past week.

finished 2 serials, "Wedding" by Jang Nara and "A love to kill" by Rain.

bee bought these dvds for me to kill time. he said "if this guy (Rain) is so popular, his show should not be that bad. although he is so ugly, and cannot sing"... hahah.. that was what i first commented about Rain when i first heard and saw him on tv. First of all, what a name. secondly, he isnt drop dead gorgeous. (mebbe his bod is). third, are u sure he can sing? he does seem to be able to dance quite well though.

but sure enough, after finishing the series, i must conclude that he does act pretty well and does have his boyish charms :)

they're both nice to watch, if u can tahan the typical draggy korean style. the latter was a much faster pace series, but the ending got abit too draggy for me. but nice, nevertheless. i'm always amazed by how easily and effortlessly these korean actresses can cry like a tap.

anyhow, they sure help to kill time and take my mind off things.

looking forward to 2 more he bought, "Full house" and "Prince's first love" or something like that.

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instead of losing weight, think its been status quo, if not more.

with all the delicious confinement food prepared by mom and hubby, how not to grow fat??

bee has been one huge support, lovingly preparing every meal for me whenever he can.

really am so grateful and blessed.

we're having ginseng chicken for dinner tonite.
dun envy me ;)